I am the sea on a moonless night
Calling falling, slipping tides
I am the leaky, dripping pipes
The endless, aching drops of lights

I am the raindrop falling down
Always longing for the deeper ground
I am the broken, breaking seas
Even my blood finds ways to bleed

Even the river’s ways to run
Even the rain to reach the sun
Even my thirsty streams
Even in my dreams

I am restless
I am restless
I am restless
Looking for you
I am restless
I run like the ocean to find your shore
I’m looking for you

I am the thorn stuck in your side
I am the one that you left behind
I am the dried up doubting eyes
Looking for the well that won’t run dry

Running hard for the other side
The world that I’ve always been denied
Running hard for the infinite
With the tears of saints and hypocrites

Oh, blood of black and white and grey
Oh, death in life and night in day
One by one by one
We let our rivers run

I am restless
I am restless
I’m looking for you
I am restless
I run like the ocean to find your shore
I’m looking for you

I can hear you breathing
I can feel you leading
More than just a feeling

I can feel you reaching
Pushing through the ceiling
Till the final healing
I’m looking for you

Until the sea of glass we meet
At last completed and complete
Where tide and tear and pain subside
And laughter drinks them dry

I’ll be waiting
Anticipating
All that I aim for
What I was made for

With every heartbeat
All of my blood bleeds
Running inside me
I’m looking for you

“Restless” by Switchfoot

So lately my allergies have been KILLING me. Or at least I feel like they are. More than likely I’m just being a wimp. Anyways, in the weak state that my body has been in, it’s been so EASY to just slack off and want to do nothing. For a little while I succumbed to the normal, worldly mindset: take it easy, it’s ok to be lazy, everyone does it, there are no consequences, etc. 

In the midst of being in weakness, it’s so easy to forget that God is actually the one who allows things in life to leave us weak. Sickness, injury, busyness, whatever. He sits above it all, nothing is out of control in his eyes. I can’t help but think of all the chances I’ve had to grow through tough circumstances and missed out because I simply didn’t feel like pressing in. There is so much reward in persevering! The biggest chances for growth actually come through the tough, difficult times. I refuse to allow any circumstance to limit my potential to grow. There is literally endless opportunities day after day, and I will not miss out on one of those days!

I’m so glad our Savior persevered. In him lies the ultimate example of what it means to press through. My heart is overwhelmed when I think of everything that Jesus overcame to win back the world. Through sweat and tears of blood. Through the skin being ripped off of his back. Through the mockery and the spit. Through the nails penetrating his flesh.  And even through being forsaken by his own Father.  

Yet when all was said and done, he overcame death and is now the most beautiful, wonderful, magnificent, exalted King our hearts will ever know. 

The same strength and determination that was inside Jesus is given to us on a daily basis through his Spirit. I’m so thankful I don’t have to do it alone! 

Pretty rad revelation I had today, I must confess…

I was listening to K-Love today and heard someone’s testimony that really jumped out at me. This woman had gone through a lot of difficult trials recently, and she kept quoting Philippians 4:6-7, which says “⁶ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

I have heard this verse about a billion times, it’s actually one of my favorites. I got to thinking about the meaning of it, and I started to translate it a little differently than I had in the past. The fact is, God wants us so badly to pray through EVERY situation! He is just waiting to shower us with his peace, peace that goes above and beyond any daunting or worrisome circumstance. The thing is though, this verse doesn’t say “Pray and God will for sure answer your prayer.” It simply says he will give us peace to make it through. Ultimately, God’s will is so much greater than our own. His plan is perfect, absolutely flawless. He is telling us through this verse that we actually don’t have to understand what he’s throwing our way. It is of course human nature to want to question and ask why all the time. But when it comes to understanding God’s intentions, it should be a no-brainer what his intentions are. They are always good, always perfect, always wonderful intentions. He proved this through Jesus sacrifice and guaranteed us abundant life through his resurrection. It’s important to know that nothing is out of his control, and he enables us to have peace in the midst of any storm in life. Awesome!

• Hey guys! So with some of the free time I have, I thought it would be cool to start writing about some things I feel like God has placed on my heart. If anything I’m doing this mainly for personal benefit so I can go back and make sure I don’t forget some of things I’ve learned. There’s no point in receiving a revelation or nuggets of wisdom if you’re only going to remember it for a short amount of time. But I’m hoping that through reading these you (reading) could also gain some encouragement and maybe post some of your own opinions and thoughts also!

            Something I’m learning about, thinking of, studying, and meditating on is the fullness and extensive measure of God’s love for me/ the world. The proof of God’s love is of course found in Jesus’s death on the cross for the sins of every human being.  I have really been tuning into the greatness and mystery of how much love Jesus really showed on the cross and the true wonder of it all. I’ve been camped out on a couple verses lately, one of them being in Ephesians 3:17-19. Paul writes: “17 And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

         As I’ve been praying this prayer, I’ve begun to realize more and more how wonderful and amazing Jesus really is. In Hebrews it says, “The Son is the radiance of God’s glory and the exact representation of his being, sustaining all things by his powerful word.” It’s amazing to me how Jesus lived with us for 30+ years and was never tainted by our sinfulness. He is so Holy and wonderful, beyond any words in my vocabulary. When I’m in tune with this knowledge, it’s impossible for me not to give him endless praise and adoration.

I could really write about this forever, it’s an endless thought. Walking with God here on earth is an endless adventure that keeps getting better and better each day. I truly believe I will never know the fullness of Jesus’ love till I am with him in Heaven. And words and thoughts cannot express how I’m ready for that day!

You are heaven’s worth
I am stained with dirt, prone to depravity
You are everything that is bright and clean
The antonym of me
You are divinity

But a certain sign of grace is this
From the broken earth flowers come up
Pushing through the dirt

YOU ARE HOLY

ALL HEAVEN CRIES HOLY, HOLY GOD

But the harder I try the more clearly can I feel
The depth of our fall and the weight of it all
And so this might could be the most impossible thing
Your grandness in me

Making me clean

So here I am, all of me
Finally everything

I AM WHOLLY YOURS